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Monday, March 30, 2009

Update 30/3

So, today we had the quarterly jym break (or is it quarterly..?) and Acacia clinches 3rd again. the rankings are very similar to the previous time. shows how ppl never change. haha.

Cell outing was really too short. we barely had time to settle down nicely, play a bit of guitar hero, table soccer and monopoly, before half the group had to go. our monopoly wasnt even halfway through! but i was owning so everyone else decided to quit. leavers.

since there was no point staying when so few ppl remain (from Acacia, that is. myrtle all stayed on longer) and i was also offered a lift back on the condition i left immediately, so thats end of Acacia outing for me. we could have done so much more if there was time.

But today was a special day. where i actually had 2 cell outings. whats more, with a cell im not in. so happens the situations provided well for me to join in the Oak outing. and since its not the first time joining them, it wasnt too hard too fit in. so i joined them today for almost as long as i was with my own cell. great, triple cell fellowshipping.

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Though my recent journey has been great, and i have seen how God tested, provided and delivered me, i still do feel wary and afraid. a few warning signs are arising, though not so clear yet. i have a feeling that my next round of trials will be beginning, anytime soon. i really dont want to. i dont feel ready to let go. But bracing myself, gathering my defenses, i hope to be strengthened once again.

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My involvement in Venture Era aint bringing me much result. even though i have made that commitment to God, involving a significant sacrifice. i dont think im headed the wrong way now. but i see my peers having things so much easier. maybe God is saying 'wait'. but i cant be sure if He is actually saying 'No'. or maybe im just expecting too much. Confused and uncertain, i press on. im still waiting...

Monday, March 23, 2009

Francais

Alors, after my french course ended, i intended to continue in Alliance Francaise. (cause my textbook was still less then half covered by the end of it...) i checked with them and yes it was possible. but my course mates who i asked along have yet to decide if they wanna continue in AF, and while waiting for them, i forgot all about it. also reluctant due to whatever complications that may have.

and then yesterday i received a letter from my school's language dept which invited me to continue in French II next semester... problem of uncertainty solved! i knew of french II, but thought i couldnt go for it cos it lasted a whole year long, which i dont have. but to my surprise, French II is now changed to twice a week, allowing me to finish it within one semester. timing of the classes are quite suitable too. problem of timing solved!
Thanks be to God for this opportunity.

one good thing about french is that it has quite alot of similar vocab to english, so alot of new words can be guessed. just for fun, i came up with a list of the misleading exceptions i know of...

but thinking carefully, most of them can actually be argued to have some relation between the suggested and real meaning. see it? haha.

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Adventure camp 09

So its back from adventure camp. well certainly this was a very unique camp by the fact that it is held in a public area, accommodation in tents, and whats more, by the sea! even scouts camps dont do that. they make us pitch tents in some sickening terrain surrounded by jungles. i think this tents thing is a fresh new setting for an adventure camp. and we seem to get along with it pretty well. one thing though, why didnt we have outdoor cooking? (bbq not counted.)

overall i would say it was a fun camp. even though i missed the whole day 1 activities cos i only arrived there at 11+ due to stupid wine course exam. but after hearing how the kayaking went so bad, i was glad i didnt go. afterall, i save $8 on rentals. and before that i only missed tent pitching which i done before.

but i wished i could have gone for the night cycling. it went all well except for a few small injuries. would have been nice to feel the night sea breeze while cycling along the coast. still, after they came back from night cycling, people took a long time to wash up and have supper and stuff, so most only went to sleep at around 3am. which was my sleeping time for both nights.

during this camp, i felt there was a lot of delays between the activities. or maybe also known as free time. a bit too generous with it, so make up for those slower ones. could get rather boring, but fortunately the beach provided a good few hours of free-time killing. surprising how anyone of any age can find entertainment and leisure by the beach. stone skipping, sand structure construction, sand ball making, playing in the sand and in the waters, or simply sitting around and watch the beauty of nature. what could we have done without the beach... just sometimes groups would gather in the pavillion to play some lame social games. im not so much into them.

day 2 beach games, lasted too short due to taking too long in the morning to get ready. it was just a miserable total 3 rounds of captains ball lasting 10mins each. playing area is small too, and the goal lines keep getting distorted. over too fast.

made our way to high elements by 1.30. somehow felt i been there before, vaguely. there was a lot of waiting time; waiting for instructions and briefings, then waiting for each other to have their turns at rock wall, vertical obstacle course, broken bridge and the vine. a few helped to belay. the rest just sat around and get bored, meanwhile getting baked in the sun and not being able to properly watch our fellows sweat it out because of the glare. there really should be a bigger place with more facilities to accommodate a group of this size.
i first did the vertical obstacle course (or how i know it), my partner gave up at level 3. i then had to climb up the remaining 3 levels on my own. was stuck and almost fell at the last level, but managed to push myself up. then for the rock climbing, a bad start caused me to become more wary and cautious, which could have been detrimental to my performance. i realise the trick is to do it quickly so i dont get so tired hanging on. the broken bridge seemed scary at first, but once i started walking across it was so easy. fear and caution is the only thing that would slow downa nd hinder someone across that bridge. once again my partner made slow progress across the bridge, and i was on the other end while he was stepping on. wanted to go back, but didnt in case i made the bridge more unstable. it was a teachable moment on the importance of confidence. ran out of time and didnt get to try the vine. but everyone made it across that one.

day 2 dinner was bbq. just standard bbq items like chicken wing, sausage, satay. plus sotong, prawn and fish cake. then later on the unpopular stuff like corn and tapioca. all bbqed on on small grill, so food flow was slow. we were unsatisfied with the amount food we got, but by the time more was ready, out stomachs made us feel full already. so a large container of leftover food became the forefeit for games played later in the night.

at night, there was supposed to be the campfire session, but there was no fire. so it became instead a 'whose line isit anyway' session. we all sat on the big white canvas which became all wet and sandy with foot juice. still, the girls would be using it to sleep on later. it was an entertaining time but it somehow lacked structure.

after that the rest of the night was free n easy. as usual many didnt wanna sleep so early on last night of camp. so we stayed up and played several rounds of mafia (aka murderer)...began to like the game more. (i dont like the version with the healer though.) and when people started leaving, then we stopped and decided to sleep.

now my tent was wet and flooded from a mishap with the morning rain. it also became very sandy inside. was sickening and i decided to sleep outdoors instead. i camped onto a bench by the beach. but soon a heard the strong wind coming from the sea and went past the camp, followed by drizzle. i knew then i had no choice but to get back into the gross tent and sleep there. so yes, i had to sleep over sand and my legs in a puddle of water. but i realise that was the best place to be then. the rain came and grew into a really great storm. extremely heavy rain and very strong winds. the tent felt like it was gonna be blown off. could hear the fierce raindrops all over the tent, but it was all safe inside. poor people at the pavillion, they had a hard night.

i managed to fall asleep, and wake up to watch the sunrise. witnessed the orange sun rising up from the sea horizon. from then on, we just spend the day getting ready, freshen up, devotions, pack up the place and ready to go home by 12. nothing much on day 3, nor day 1. so i actually all i needed to go for was day 2. which i did. so i do not feel sad on missing day 1. it was a fun, easy and inspiring adventure camp. pros and cons present. perhaps taking these into consideration, next year's could be made much better.

Sunday, March 08, 2009

Update 10/3

So, there has not been very good response from the questions posted on my previous post... which could only come from 3 things:
- nobody dares to give an answer
- nobody bothers to think about it and comment
- hardly anyone reads this blog.
well i do hope its the first and not the third.


well its holiday time now apparently. break away from all the projects and studies. i was pretty free during the first few days after my freedom, and i guessed i much wasted it away. but now it has been filled with activity so much that holiday isnt like holiday, in the sense that there aint much time for my own free activities at home, like learning on pipsology. havent even done 2 chapters.

i would say its a good thing to be always kept busy, provided im doing constuctive things. i guess most of them are... its packed nearly full this whole week, and then next week theres gonna be camp. but after that the plans are thin. thats the time i might go back to being bored.

I was praying that i would spend my time wisely, and also to find a job. well about spending time wisely thats yet to say. but instead a job found me. yeah they actually call up students from the contacts i dunno how they obtained, and ask them to join. im uncertain on how this career would go and how truly attractive it is. but im giving it a try for the sake of learning, even if i dont get to earn much after all. i dont see myself being very involved in this.

i have been trying out once again on Dota AI. still using the quite outdated 6.43AI. and lately i have now succeeded in winning against 5 insanes using several heroes that had failed a few times before or i had perceived impossible. then somehow now it turns out quite easy...
these include:
- enigma
- goblin techies
- tinker
- phantom lancer
- spirit breaker
- crystal maiden
- silencer
- dark seer

for most of them, the secret lies within 1 or 2 certain crucial items. commonly, its bloodstone. i realised, its quite imbal using against 5 AIs. well, i shall continue trying again on those outcasted heroes.. when i have time.

i have experienced how problems and tough times in life had been a great learning experience for me and how it made me grow stronger. now i can see that God is gradually taking me out of my trials and replacing them with blessings. And so one night as i was reflecting on my blessings, out of a moment of zeal i prayed that God would put me through the next series of trails so i could learn and grow even more. and the very next moment, i regretted praying for that.
so i anxiously prayed to take back that request, because i cant bear to part with my long-awaited blessings. yet. but when is the right time to come out of my comfort zone again? or will i never come out by having this mentality...

Claudia & xuxu
Dvd Lim
Lawrence
Sdoru-ll-urodS!: March 2009