Extraordinary Temporality

Has life really gotten worse than before? Or does it just feel that way? that is something i cannot decide at all. many things have changed over the past few years. some for the better, some for the worse. and throughout the times, they have been pocketed with both good moments and bad. God gave and took away. And i cannot measure if He has given more than He's taken so far...
but what i do know is that there has been recent times i felt so low like never before. As i move on in life and opportunities are used up, the hope for the future diminishes, simply by the fact that there are less things coming my way in my journey of life, and therefore less to hope for. This reduces my ability to hold strong during the down times and look ahead. And during the record-low times, they merely lasted a few days, and were caused by several unpleasant things happening to me at once. All these things didnt really make me 'hopeless' in life, but added together, they sure made me miserable. Temporary things. Temporary feelings.

I just noticed today how extraordinarily temporal feelings of "wellness" could be. Just yesterday, i was feeling so happy, like life is getting much better, because of the things that were going well at the moment - all the things that made me feel well-off. The next day, the things that i felt happy about didnt go well - just for the day. coupled with a bout of busyness, my emotions just took a plunge and i felt miserable again. Its almost like PMS or bipolar syndrome!

How i wish i could just get over the temporality of all these feelings, find a sense of security despite all that happens to me, and just tide it through a day at a time, headstrong, fuelled by hope.