Viva Las Vegas

In a few hours time, ill be flying off to las vegas for the next 5 weeks. bags mostly packed, leaving after a finale-seeming cell. so ill be going with a blank sheet on my itinerary - just school and nothing else. no ppl who agree to go with me, everyone else has their own plans and company. I’m the only one who is all alone. My roommates probably not going. Maybe ill get a new one or be with myself. The other 2 in the same dorm I may connect with, but other than that, I’m all by myself.

So I heard it said and I wish to believe that there will good times and lonely times. I pray that the good times will be much more than the lonely ones. Have I had not enough loneliness?

The only thing in plan is church with fellow Christians. So I don’t know what would or could happen there, the opportunities are a mystery until I go there and find out myself. This is a test of faith which I will embark on, trusting in the Lord to be my guide and provider. And also, to not live according to what other ppl in the society may expect or set standards for. While it is not good for man to be alone, I don’t have to go out of my way just to be accepted, to finding company, to fit in with a bunch of ppl that I don’t really connect well with. Anyways, it is not a great downfall to be alone.

I’ve tried my best. I have not rejected any opportunities - I just didn’t find them. so it just turns out I have no friends to go around with at the moment, and I have to get over the stigma of being a loner, unaccepted, having no friends. Maybe ill get new friends, or maybe I will be satisfied without. I do hope it’s the former, but God's ways I may not comprehend. So Lord, have it your way.

Many of them have already gone ahead to other places for a short getaway before las vegas – LA, Korea, beaches, whatever. Going in a big group, having fun together, hanging out at each others house, having a horde of family and friends to see them off at the airport, taking group pictures together. the pictures are blasted repeatedly over facebook and instagram.

And here I am, spending the 2 last days alone at home. Clearly I am deprived socially. I don’t know, is it me, or just the circumstances. Is this all part of the Lord’s plan for the greater good? Could there be good coming out of this deprivation?