Last words as a civilian

So the time has now come to serve the Nation. My last day as a full-time civilian till 2 years later. Sad, kinda. But trying to keep a positive attitide which hopefuly would remain throughout. I believe keeping a positive attitude is already half the battle won... and there actually isnt much to be afraid or anxious about army. I mean, everyone goes through it, almost all of them survived. the worst that could happen is... finish the 2 years without much achievements. Then life continues as per normal.

So ill just go ahead without any worry, keeping open, learn whatever i have to, and adapt however i have to. that should do it fine... provided i adapt fast enough.

Much of the scaryness of it all probably comes from the uncertainty of it all. That was greatly eased from hearing from those who have gone before me, plus watching the rather new series of 'every singaporean son' videos on youtube, really giving me a good idea of whats to come. Whats to come in the next several hours has also been pre-experienced when i sent off an old classmate off to tekong on tuesday. it was from a civilian view, though. Felt weird that soon enough, ill be like one of them.

Separation from familiar friends and families is also another issue for NSmen, but hey ive gone through the 5 months of total separation when i was in Mickey kingdom; this would be nowhere as bad since im only a few kilometres away, and returning to civilisation every week.

My last few days, not doing as much as i wanted to. But i did have a crash course of driving lessons in this one week before. No, not crashing cars. but yeah, wished i could have done it 1 or 2 weeks earlier, cause then i would be ready for test by now. I already see much improvement after each lesson. into my 6th lesson, i now drive rather comfortably at 50km/h without always checking the speedometer like i used to.

I might correct myself later on, but from what i see now, army cant be that bad. There would be plenty of good experiences and learning opportunities that would outweigh the sufferings endured. Furthermore, though having little confidence in myself, i have much in the One who would see me through. And that turns all anxiety into excitement!