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ahh, the projects are finally starting to die down. the busiest period is over, and only 1 more project and 3 assignments is left to do, until its time to study for the exams. its been a rather... interesting semester i would say. firstly cause of the whole stretch of busyness which carried on since like the 3rd week of the semester, over the holidays and until now. inevitably, this new situation has caused some change in me. for better or for worse, thats subjective.

i used to be an afternoon person, with my peak of performance in mid afternoon until dinner time. but now all these project madness has forced me to burn midnight oil on many days. not only that, my group mates are all night birds who start work at 10+ and go on till 2+.. and since its a group effort, i have to adapt to their timing especially when discussion is needed. going to bed at 12 like i used to last semester would give them the impression that im slacking, cos im sleeping while they work. of course, the timings for lessons dont change, so im only left with less sleep time everyday. but after having only have an average of about 6.5 hours of sleep for a few weeks, i now find myself being better able to cope with the lessened sleep, with it having less effect on my performance. and when i do get just 8 hours of sleep (which was my average last time), i feel so much better. its like my body has been trained to make more out of every minute of sleep. its such a great ability, for it means i have more time everyday.

sometimes it may take a toll on me, but the sleepiness always goes away if i force myself awake until the drowsy haze is over. then sickness symptoms may arise, but they always dont last, even if i dont rest well after that. its been a really long time since i was sick enough to need an MC. more than a year... thanks be to God.

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i realised, people everywhere often actually dont know what they want before they go into it. dont know what field they wanna work in next time, which school to go to, which options to pick. and they just make a choice because they have to, or choose those choices that will give them more time to make a more restricting decision. and so many ppl waste a lot of time because of their indecision, or they may choose but regret their choice later, and change here and there, even to a totally different field. and it happens to people everywhere. but i do understand how they feel. its the trait of youngsters nowadays - avoiding making commitments. and it aint doing us justice most of the time.

and so i find of myself; i can get the hang of a lot of things rather easily, but it seems i never become a master at any of them. i cant think of anything that im really good at. i still dont have an idea what i wanna do next time, even after ive greatly narrowed my choices by joining this specialised tourism course... i can still break out of it. recently my parents have identified for me what profession would suit me best. im slightly convinced, but with much doubt nevertheless. ill just wait and see what opportunities may come to confirm it.

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the latest version of dota has come out recently.. 6.58b... and it im getting rather fed up with Icefrog. the Undying has been changed totally, for the worse! there goes my 2 favourite farming heroes (KOTL and undying)... the new KOTL stuff may be of some good, but how good can it be without Ignis Fatius?! theres now no more nice to use farmers.

and look at the new heroes thats been coming up.. the clockwerk goblin, windrunner and the lame Kunka.. all not nice to use. their abilities are rather unique, but they just dont go well together, i feel. and so it makes the hero very rojak and not nice to use. put in new heroes if he may, but i wish he'd stop touching the old ones! Icefrog has been slacking on his standards man... he must be getting old.

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i have recently picked up on FB holdem poker again, and my pot is steadily growing. been on an unlucky streak for some time, losing away my daily allowance, but now things are getting better. what made it better? - by playing in a lower bid table.
through playing holdem i have found out that im quite impatient and dare to take risks. i dont have the patience to keep waiting till i get a real good combo, and meanwhile staying out all the time. losing these worthless virtual chips dont cost me anything, but it gives me a good feel of the gambling experience. and even more so now, i know i would not want to gamble in real life, after experiencing how my fortune could just go down the drain on one wrong move. i still retain strong interest in many card games... so long as it doesnt involve real money.

i should better prepare myself well before going into forex, which i plan to soon...