40-day fast

i have decided to go on 40 days of fasting. (today is 2nd day). not the usual fasting on food, but game-fasting. from now on, on the laptop, i shall have only internet-based entertainment. No dota, no whatever games except on the internet. why 40 days? cos i think its a nice number, following Jesus' example. 40 days later is also almost the end of my semestral exam period. i may not break fast on the 41st day though.

it may be quite a radical decision but i have to. for a while i have been plagued by a terrible ailment which consist of gaming addiction, laziness and procrastination combined, causing me to feel so sian about doing my work, i push it forward till really last minute. sometimes i end up not having enough time to do it, properly. its like i really dont feel like doing at all, and so i try to pass the time by... gaming. makes time fly.

this fasting wont make me like work more, but with the big time killer called gaming removed, i wont have that option of passing time. i will then feel even more sian doing nothing, and would rather do work. its not that i do nothing besides gaming, but other things dont take up so much time, and are usually not as interesting.

i believe this fasting is very possible and i wont be too miserable. i still have internet entertainment anyway. i shall not fail. to reduce temptation, i have deleted all the game icons from my desktop and startup bar. (of course the programs itself are still installed.) I think God is encouraging me to do this too. Just today, my laptop mouse suddenly spoiled! it says '"USB device not recognised." i cant play games properly using touchpad, but can still do other things fine. wow, what a sign.

ok.. 1 day down, 39 to go. Dota fellows, i know ivan n minah r back, but dont invite me to dota convos anymore. you'll stumble me! remember... 39 days more!