Festivity over

hmm i just realised this is the 50th post of the year! nice number. i shall not spoilt it.

its now 26th december, and the spirit of festivity has seemed to have totally vanished. something is terribly wrong this year. in the past years, even a month before christmas day, the 'festivity is in the air' mood would be instilled in me, and grows stronger as it nears the day itself. after which it would decline rapidly but still last a few days.

this year the mood was hardly there.. much weaker than last year, despite some supposed mood-stirring events like the TC christmas play (the failure which i wouldnt wanna talk about.) i think i only started getting the mood like 5 days before christmas.

this christmas has also been better for me in the social area - twice as many cards given and received, though some ppl really do the cards a disservice by writing less than 10 words. plus, 2 presents from jymers compared to 0 last year. and 4 presents from relatives. but i guess its hard to buy presents for me cos whatever i want is either not for sale or too expensive.
but yet the mood left me so fast.

something funny about christmas that applies to almost everyone - it is prepared for and sometimes celebrated as far as 2 months before, but yet after 25th dec, there aint anymore celebrations. the tree may be still up for awhile, but nobody appreciates it anymore once that day is over. but by right, it should be the opposite. i mean have some preparations before, then celebrations on christmas eve and day, plus for another 11 days after. thats whats the "12 days of christmas" thing is all about.

maybe one of the causes of this is.... poly! argh. only give me 2 weeks of break, and even then theres assignments and exams ahead, it so spoils the mood. so to those who want to enjoy a good christmas, one of the factors is not to go to poly.

O where art thou, christmas?
i thought i found u,
but now youve gone away...

eww sounds so emo. hope for better mood this cny. aritem off.